robin williams

I force myself everyday
too gladly join the ranks of the saddest
loneliest people in the world.

I take medicine to join

The ranks of people that masturbate in internet chatrooms

I look in the mirror and wonder when i’m real

Like watching a serious robin williams movie.

Which character is the real robin williams

He all ways looks and sounds like a irish alcoholic that lost his wife

And found heroin

Is that the real one?

I claw and kick and scream to join the ranks of the loneliest people in the world

For whom sex is broken

into 2 parts.

“help me do it”

Or

“watch me do it”

i ask to join the ranks

of the saddest

loneliest people in the world.

I wash and brush myself

Into uniform

I sleep and eat

Into sanity

i drive and stand

from point a

to point a

i pretend pray

that i can join their ranks

to put another day behind me

and smile at another day wasted

i celebrate another year in the mits

i worship with them

i try

all i want to be is as sad and lonely as the world around me

that i can enjoy everyday

tonite i drink sleep from a glass

and tomorrow i swallow a

prescribed

beautiful

sunrise

i want to join the ranks

of the saddest loneliest people in the world

because i want to be normal.

So i can look in the mirror

And be robin williams.

For another day.

And another

And another....